July 2011
1 post
June 2011
3 posts
All Good
I have neglected my tumblr for months now and after reading over a few posts it is clear why: my tumblr became the place where I let out all my sad, depressed emotions. Even I didn’t want to read that shit and I wrote it. Sorry to anyone who got dragged into my neuroses and endless crippling self-loathing and doubt. If it helps, here is a photo of my cat being super cuddly. And how bad can...
“‘Why do beautiful songs make you sad?’
‘Because they aren’t true.’
‘Never?’...”
– Jonathan Safran Foer (via loveyourchaos)
May 2011
1 post
Pretending I’m not sad is physically exhausting.
March 2011
1 post
A long winded way to spell grief
So last week the Suns traded Goran Dragic (my fictitious future husband) thus starting a chain reaction for the events of this past week.
Thursday 2/24: I text my dad “The Suns traded Dragic. Saddest. Day. Ever!” to which he responds “I’m so sorry, I’m in Oregon. My mom needs triple bi-pass surgery and canceled it so I had to fly up to make sure she got it...
February 2011
1 post
The Unbearable Lightness of Being (Me)
“I am always sad, I think. Perhaps this signifies that I am not sad at all, because sadness is something lower than your normal disposition, and I am always the same thing. Perhaps I am the only person in the world, then, who never becomes sad. Perhaps I am lucky.” — Jonathan Safran Foer (Everything Is Illuminated)
I close my eyes and I feel it. I feel the weight of every decision...
January 2011
11 posts
There are days...
There are days I miss things so intensely, so completely that it consumes me. I am, quite literally, frozen with loneliness. I have never been able to understand it either. I have always been obsessed with an idea of the future but it has recently occurred to me that I will never get to a future without letting go of my version of the past.
There are days where I do nothing but think of alternate...
Soap Box
Okay, I’ve really put a lot of thought into this and I have to say that the news of Tom Sawyer and Huckleberry Finn being edited to replace the word “nigger” with “slave” outrages me.*
I understand people are offended by this kind of language and these books are heavy on the language, no doubt, but censorship is not the answer.
Alan Gribben, the editor of the new...
November 2010
2 posts
I miss my AJP.
Just wanted to tell you on another medium that wasn’t FB.
Keep up the amazing work!
Depression is like herpes, sure you can have symptom-free days but a flair-up is just around the corner.
October 2010
10 posts
Stream of consciousness
Sometimes I turn the water on as hot as it will go and just sit there. I let the water burn my skin and think that this is what acid rain must feel like. I think that previous generations must think this world has gone to hell. I think about how thankful I am that I didn’t grow up in previous generations. I think about how intolerance was so prevalent. I then think about the recent string of...
I am not sad.
“He awoke each morning with the desire to do right, to be a good and meaningful person, to be, as simple as it sounded and as impossible as it actually was, happy. And during the course of each day his heart would descend from his chest into his stomach. By early afternoon he was overcome by the feeling that nothing was right, or nothing was right for him, and by the desire to be alone. By...
Things I'm loving:
1. Jeremy Messersmith’s album The Reluctant Graveyard. It is a combo of Death Cab, Fountain’s of Wayne and Nada Surf. A Girl, A Boy and a Graveyard is worth your download.
2. Dexter. Doesn’t matter if it is the TV series (which is fantastic) or the books (currently reading the fifth installment) this serial killer is worth rooting for.
3. The fact that basketball season starts...
How amazing is Google’s homepage today?
http://www.google.com/webhp?sourceid=navclient&ie=UTF-8
Lennon changed the world in his short 40 years. Happy Birthday John, from one dreamer to another.
March 2010
1 post
January 2010
2 posts
Oh Rexy, you’re so sexy.
Can we all agree to make today Rex Manning Day?
December 2009
4 posts
Soundtrack to Your Life
It is almost that time again- Soundtrack to your life 2009 edition. Here are the basic rules: Over the last year, what are the 10-12 songs that defined you. It can be anything from your most played song on iTunes to something that has lyrics just for you. It has to work like any soundtrack, no more than one CD worth so really narrow it down. It is also fun to get an explanation of why.
For...
October 2009
3 posts
I literally just thought to myself, if I were a character on Grey’s Anatomy- who would I be?
I then deduced I would be Christina. How sad is that? I’m even a supporting character in my own mind.
“If it wasn’t this, it would be something else.”
September 2009
53 posts
What am I doing here?
Been gone WAY too long. Jeepers, now I gots to work at building my tumblarity back up.